I will launch myself at you
With fervor and distance
And a smile so wide you may lose yourself in it if you’re not careful

It will happen so quickly you won’t even notice the walls I leapt over to reach you
The doors I locked behind me

There is safety in the attack

I will hug you with power
And fear
But not love
Love is too scary even for me

Love is the enemy I chase
And dodge
And hunt
Even as it camouflages itself in friendship
And connection

Love is the one enemy I can’t defeat

So, as you approach
With your own hopes and fears
Wondering what will come of our chance encounter
I will hold my heart close
Preparing to keep you far
And I will hug you