It’s been a long war
So many battles
I’ve lost count of the losses
Lessons learned
Suspended on crosses
In judgement
In solitude

I don’t know what to tell you
I’m tired
I’m losing words
Losing strength
I don’t want to fight you
I don’t want to love you
I’m done giving

I exist in air
My atoms move your atoms
But your mind is unmoved
As if I didn’t exist at all
And so I fall
I fall

I wonder how many days remain
I wonder who will wash this stain
Off my filthy soul
Fill this broken hole
Because it can’t be me
I’ve tried and tried
But it can’t be me
I’ve lied beside
But it can’t be me
My I has died
It can’t be me
I’m not even here
So it can’t be me